step outside put a match to my cigarette, remember all the things i've tried so hard to forget.

so my sister gave me a listography journal for christmas, and it's made me realize a few terrifying things.



first of all: falling in love tends to take over your life. filling out lists in the journal my thoughts came back to him almost every time. for example: people you love the most, countries you've visited, you biggest sins, favorite songs, most memorable people in your life, bands you've seen live, best gifts you've ever recieved. Somehow memories with him were at the top of every list i tried to write but i didn't really mind...



second: your first love is irreplaceable. this thought is a huge part of whats keeping me sane right now, no matter how many other relationships you have in highschool you can't beat that one.